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anyone?

2007-12-17T14:46:00.000+08:00

so, does anyone still come here?
haha!
but who cares?

i miss you.
and i wonder if thats okay.
its so unexpected.
you of alll people came to my mind.
its not like a despise it and all

but its just so unexpected

anyways,
birthday's just arnd the corner.
and i dont really have any plans for it.
i guess its jsut another mundane day.

being around people whom makes me smile would be a great gift.
anyon up for that?
anyone??

anyone?

2007-12-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

moved

2007-09-26T13:34:00.001+08:00

hey guys!
ive moved to LJ due to influencial reasons
but have no idea how to go about functioning it
someone please help..
oh yes,
its at http://chewy-tablets.livejournal.com
HEE HEE
:D

i was just thinking

2007-09-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

we are all entitled to our own opinions yes?
we do have the right to speak our minds yes?
we as humans do make assumptions yes?
we do let our emotions out yes?
we do let our mind wander yes?
we dont really read minds yes?(unless youre psychic)

so tell me why
why cant you ask me those questions?
why cant you direct it to me?
if you have emotins which you dont wanna show me,then keep it in good
if you think that by me changing is gonna affect the things or in this case thing in my life,
tell me bout it.

i feeel i cant get into you anymore
that i can no longer get along with you anymore
like theres this barrier btwn us
yeah,perhaps its just me
wait, it is me
but what can i do?
i really really can no longer feel it.
yeah, you might say im blocking it out
then doesnt that tell you something?

this is where i can let my emotions out
im truly speaking my mind right now

if youre not happy with the way things are,
TELL ME!
talk to me
cant do that?
pen out your thoughts

but just so you know
it might get nasty
cause i might not wanna talk
cause what i ned right now
is alone time
time away...
away from you.

today

2007-09-22T13:52:00.000+08:00

are you refering to me?
maybe you're not.
oh well. #3

mm,
met up with quite a few people last night.
met up with roach and widya
they were both late by the way
i swear, punctuality..not in their dictionary
HAHAH!
oh well.
then i bumped into gwen
she was waiting for shaunna
haha!
andyou know shaunna was late too
hahah!
then they left for suntec
and me oach and widya waited for farah to come
walked around like some lost people..
from orchard to somerset to orchard to rivervalley
oh my!
hahah!
but dinner was good
yawl shd just share food
haha!
dint even finish la
food wasters!

walked all the way back to town after that
felt that we needed the walk
hahah!
our tummys were bloated like fuck la!
haha!

oh well,
then we made our way home :)
home sweet home

its amazing
how awkward it may seem
so just walk pass people we used to acknowledge
those we once hanged out with
that had so much fun together
but now we just walk pass them

hw bout those hugs we took for granted
thinking there'd always be another hug
but there isnt
sometimes there just isnt any word
to describe the emotions
like there's just nothing
to say bout it anymore

like how there are certain things
we can and cannot say
how we'd have to put up a front
pretend we're okay
not speaking whats on our mind

to me i felt,
it was a facade(sp)
it was all fake
false.pretence.
covering up the real emotions felt
after a while,
it gets tiring
exhausted.

till the truth is out,
i guess i'd just lay low about it all

2007-09-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

ahh,
where shall i begin?
ifeel so bored stayin home
yet im too lazy to go out
why is that so?
what did i do yesterday...
mm,i woke up at one
slacked around
watching tv and dvds
then what.?
oh yes, mom came home
then it was time to eaaat!
YAY!

after which i continued slacking
like seriously
lazing around is not good
tsk tsk nor
hah!

oh yes, then i watched america's next top model
oe of my favourite's out la!
dang!
but its okay
some are still inside
haha!

someone please come
and explain to me to what has become
is it that im immune to it
or tht i dont bother
maybe its just me
i get agitated at the slightest things

and if its just me
why now?
why one?
why?

you know, i can seriously go crazy
having so many thoughts in my head know
maybe i gotta fill up my time
maybe i just gotta stay in
keep myself from others
but stayin home isnt an option

siggghhhh.
im gonna faster than i think.

dots

2007-09-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i need anymore
i dont know what to do
every step i take
every move i make
seems like im draggin a thousand tonnes along with me

when i have the time alone
i sit and i think
i try to think things through
but nothing i ever think of has a conclusions
yes,i have answers for them but
somehow it jsut doesnt feel right

there is no right or wrong answers
but the ones i have just doesnt suit it
what do i need out of this
what is it trying to show

i try to be the middle man
and play fair
but none seems to satisfy
myself especially

there are times i wish i knew the answer
then what life would that be then
to be spoon fed with aswers to our dying questions
to get a response from all our thoughts

well, we all know life has its ups and downs
so i guess we cant complain and just get through with it

many months has passed
so many it close to yet another year
yet i feel i dint accomplish anything
perhaps i did
just not in a long run

so am i to be contented
cause atleast ive achieved
to look on the bright side
and know i've atleast felt the feeling of accomplishment,though for a while

i need to do some thinking
but where do i begin?

wow.shock me

2007-09-19T11:03:00.000+08:00

You Are Very Happy Being Single
You're not anti-relationship. You just don't need one to be content.
You find plenty of happiness from your life as it is.
And if you find someone you love, then that's just icing on an already decadent cake!

early morning

2007-09-19T10:15:00.000+08:00

if i dont understand
explain to me till i do
if im insensitive
let me feel the way you do
if im careless
tell me im wrong
if i seem like i dont care
tell me what to do
show me the way to the ideal place
cause it seems like no matter how hard i try,i fail

probably its just me
cause nothing seems to work
then i go thinkin bout how it all began
and i wonder..
wonder if i made the right choice

it was way easier than this
much more relaxed and chilled
i felt so care free at that time

but i guess its the age
and the thinking
maturity;took the better of me

says my horoscope;
Someone has much higher expectations of you than they have a right to. In order to prevent any misunderstandings, be honest and be direct about what your comfort level is -- and if you have to put certain tasks off for another day, then do so. There will be a lot of distracted people to deal with right now, and it could be quite difficult to separate yourself from the growing conflict. All of this disharmony could affect your life in an unpredictable way.

is that right?
would there be a right time to do it??

2007-09-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

pos;
you know i could never understand you
right from the very beginning
i try and i try
to make up for what you have done
to comprehend why you did things as such
you made it seem like shes the only one youve got
that everyone else didnt matter
you go all out just give her what she wants
to impress her,you satisfy her every want
even at times where its unneccessary
but what but those related to you?
you donteventreat em like family
you assume nobody cares for you
that we're all here just to put you down
that all of us are just out to put you down
but think bout my brother
what is it that has cause for us to have such behaviour towards you
in ur line of priorities,
where do we stand?
where does she stand?
think bout it.

sigh,
thats a relief
now thats it's off my chest
i shall update

the last time i blogged was after my paper right?
well,on thursday
i met up with donn.
long time long time

then on friday.
wah,hell i was pissed off with the com mann.
i dinthave school and wantd t try out the wireless and coffee bean
and bloody hell
slow as a bloody turtle i tell you
the fact that it took so long to load.
then it took forever to detect my wireless
and like another thousand years to open the page
yes yes
i do not have the patience
so i gave up half way
HAHA!
oh well now
then i went for dinner with kakak and abg. :))
oh,the love. :D

hmm,
weekends were pretty exhausting
family gatherings
bla bla bla.

then monday came
met roach in the morning
she had an interview
which got CANCELLED
hahah!
poor thing la that one
walked around town.
met azie and farah
chilled at starbucks till like god knows what time
theni went back to azie'splace to break me fast
HAHAAH!!
ASAM PEDAS yo
its a damn yummy dish ima telling ya!

today!
i met raoch in town
that girl had school
walked around a bit
town felt really empty
the fact that nothing else ould be done but walk around
im fastin raoch is fasting
wait a minute
whose making a fuss?
hahah!
ohwell.
then it was off to meet her sister at around 5.30
toook the train back to her place
had dinner with her.
once that was done
i made my way home!
home sweet home

yes i call it my home because i stay with my mom
and....
yeah thats it
it's a home because i stay with my mom
then again maybe its a hiuse that mom and i had no choice
but to stay in.??
hmm...

i know know
there are times that she would annoy me
and irritate me
but nonetheless,
shes still my mother and i love her very much. :))

whats a house
when i dont feel at home
whats a house
when i dont have my own bedroom
whats a house
when i dont get to rest
whats a house
when i dont get privacy
whats a house
when it feels so emtpy

i guess every household has its secrets
and im just expressing myself.

till then,
i wonder what im gonna do tmr.
HAH!

2007-09-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

my exams are over!!!

haha! yay!!
mmm,now thats a relieve.
hah!
but fasting month's round the corner
more of like tmr please
haha!
but thats not gona stop me from goin out. :)
hahah!

anyways,
now that im free
i shall be a frequent blogger
do things that i cldnt do..
like update
upload photos
change my bloody friendster account
get a book to read
and go window shopping
go loose weight
go clean my side of the room
clean the house
and most importantly catch up with the peoples yo
so long la
hahah!!

DONN,you see thiss.? yep,youre gonna see my face so often now on.
heh!

anyways,
what happened today
i went to town after school
which seems like forever since ive been there
bumped into moomoo(bev)
poor girl has As ta sit for
GOOOD LUCK! :B

waited for farah who took forever to come down
and she came from tp by the way
even me who came all the way from clementi got there first
hahah!
went for lunch..
met up with roach
wah,that girl
looking for a job
haha!
and so we did
went to wisma then taka
she got herself an interview
do well okay?
you'll get the job fer sho' mann
then we waited for widya
poor girl had school
she came in uniform all..
ohohoh!
we bumped into gaby!
thanks for the stick!! :D
hahah!
then we got all hyper
started laughin our ass off
hahah!!
i must say tdays a day well spent
i mean compared to the times ive been studying.
YES people, STUDY!
HAH!

OHOHOH!
here's the funny part
i got home changed
soon enough ruben( my bro) got home
he started doin a penguin dance
and started singin..
"you dont have to be beautiful..to be my girl.."
what the hell mann
and i wonder if he's 29..or 9

oh well now.
hahah!
anyways,
i shall get goin.
dinner's waiting for me.
and besides it's nine o clock!
time for channel 8~

so long suckerrss...
:)
hee, PEACE

oh yes and to all you sitting for Ns and Os
GOOD LUCK
do well and party hard when its all over.
HAHA!

HAHAHA!

2007-09-11T09:19:00.000+08:00

you know as days go by
the thoughts in my head gets greater
the questions still do not have answers
sometimes i find mysef wandering around aimlessly

they say we cant always have things go our way
so why bother asking?
the past has made me realise some stuffs
and some which i wished i dint do

why is it that the expressive side of a hman being,
only shows when the matter is over.
why cant people be able to show the emotions during a particular situation
why save it for after that

and do you believe in karma?
does it really happen?

i say forget the conflicts
forget the pain
forget everything
and move one from there

dear #3,
it was good having that conversation with you last friday
now, you know how i truly feel
and i know how you feel
honestly, kinda missed that.
i mean we have always beenincontact and all
then like you just stop replyin me
you dont acknowledge my presence
and now i know why
i guesss its better if you just go with them
i mean you them more than you need me

but you know id always be around

you can count on that

well,anyway..

i'll see you around i guess..

yes,as confusing as this entry seems
my mind's about the same thing
i guess we can always be a hero
and try to solve everything thats goin wrong
i guess we come to a point of time where
we just have to let things be
and hope that perhaps one days things would be okay.

food for thought

2007-08-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

helloo.
listen,
this is what i had in mand yesterday a around two plus

i was at Ubi cdc
and was sitting at the cafateria while waiting for class so start.
as usual i had my ear piece plugged in
and drink my all time favourite drink.
then, i thought...

im a penguin
and people say im a bird
(THOUGH I STRONGLY DISAGREE)
and we know birds can fly
but since i dont have wings
can i fly after drinking redbull???
i mean..
*redbullgives you wings*

so the question remains.
would i be able to fly??

anyway,
i think starfish(s) are really cute.
HAHAH
what do you think??

2007-08-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

hey ho yo peoples.
hahaha!
yes yes,
updates updates.
i know.

hmmm,
ive jst havent gotten into the mood of like daily blogging but yeah.
when was the last time i updated?
before i even started school la.
hah!

well, lots has happened eversince.
school started.
dint go schl on the second day
meet ups and more meetups
movies
chilling
laughing
twn-ing
of course project work
and lots more la.
i just cant remember
hahaha!
BAY BEATS!
that one i cannot forget.
HAHAH!!

anyway, the latest one..
i watched alon yesterday
HAHAHAH!
its quite funnny i must say
pretty iteresting to tease people bout it.
HAHAHAHA!!

anyway,
i swear this entry dmn waste of time la
but yeah.

off ta do project now.
so long suckerrrss!!
HEH

dont say that bout being second best
cause it's best position to be
it will come to show what it means

blank

2007-07-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

ahh,
the weekend before school official starts again for me
hmm.
i dont know if wanna the holidays to end or for it to last longer
the past few weeks
i must say lots have happenned
alot of things said
alot of things done
what i thought would have been the highlight of the month
just came tumbling down on me

and now i have to begin right from the start
or then maybe i can just go forward and not look back

ya know i realise
that sometimes confidence takes the better of people
what least expect and so sure wont happen, happens
just like that
dang.

i guess we have things to settle amongst ourselves
some decision to make
i think ive made up mine
i just dont know bout yawl

#7
very unexpected.
thats all i have to say.

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has ~~nothing~~ to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

regrets

2007-06-30T15:01:00.000+08:00

hmm,
as i read through my previous entries
and my loyal book called a diary
ive realised ive done so many mistakes
so many things that i said and did out of anger
that at this very moment i dont really mean it

#1
the words i uttered
the tonation(sp) i used
they were so uncalled for
something that i could have avoided

then again,
there were things i said
that perhaps maybe i did mean it then
that at the moment it was the most appropriate thing to say

but as i look back on yesterdays,
i truly regret it
it's like i wish i cold turn back time
change the things ive said
erase the memories ive left
un-break the hearts ive broken
the hurts ive caused

but then again
perhaps maybe im just asking for a another chance
to be able to make things right again
yeah perhaps it'll tke time
loads of time
a very long time

would you guys give me a chance
to retrace my path and
correct all thats wrong

im sorry
if sound very depressed
cause im not
its just that i was giving this some thought
and i just wantd to make things right.
thats all..

#7
what is it that you want me to do?
everything i do is wrong
tell you and youre not happy bout it
dont tell you bout it and you say im hiding things from you
so what is it that you want me to do
okay so i say things that yo prolly dont wanna know bout
but you could atleast pretended like you cared
that you would actually listen to me even if our conversation wasnt productive??

words

2007-06-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

words.
theyre a wonderful bunch
put it a sentence and it conveys an emotion
some may be good
some may be bad
some may cause
anger
hurt
irritation
and much more

it can make you happy and sad
surprised or dissappointed
or sometimes even confused

or how bout its tryin to hide a truth??
does it really cover it up?
or lead on to another emotion???

emotions
sometimes we use words to hide emotions
sometimes its done intentionally
or at time for the benefits of others

oh wells..

anyways, wish me luck for my test tmr.
first time yo.
kinda nervous.
ahahah!

thoughts

2007-06-25T11:37:00.000+08:00

hey all.
its a monday
everyone starts school
and for the first time i feel pretty empty at home
no one's around
its just me and the tv and my ciggarettes

anyways,
things have changed
i have changed
i try changing for the benefit of others
then again would this be me
or would the old me be me?

i try to fit in
i try to meet with ur demands
but please dont make it seem like i dont care
like i dont bother to make sure youre okay
im sorry if i fail at times
or that i dont reach ur expectations
im sorry that i dont have a perfect past
im sorry i screwed up like shit
but i seriously dont think that talkin bout it time and time again is gonna help any of us

yes i know truth hurts
and reality bites
i say it all the time
i see happening always
but i guess once in a while we've gotta look over it

i once passed a blog that said something like
we shouldnt be living in the present yet still having thoughts of the past
cause that way we'd never move on
we'll constantly think bout it that it'll kill us sooner or later
yes the memories, it stays
yes the pain, it lingers
yes the emotions, it occurs once in while

ive come to the final bend
i no longer know what to do or say
i try to cover it up over and over again
not to mention anything
but still certain things that happen might spark you to think bout it
theres really nothing i can do then

am i giving up
just letting things be the way they are?
or am i just gonna keep it in till one day i might just explode

yes it hurts to see the pain
the words
the actions
its all been said and done
i cant turn back time
i apologise
but what is it that you want me to do

those words that comes out frm the mouth
the body language that comes with it
it hits me hard
just so yawl know
but knowin where i stand,
~~i'll just take it in~~

[see past my flaws and all]

2007-06-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might've took the long way
We knew we'd get there some day
They said "I'll bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together, still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight

Ain't nothing better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missing
They said "I'll bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together, still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight
You're still the one
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss goodnight
I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

hey,
i know i know
i really need to update regularly
but ive been really busy please..
and plus,
projects and projects and more projects

im suppossedly doin my research by the way
just so you know.
haahah!

anyways.
ive really gotta do some research mann.
HAH!
bye all.

JOEY: im missing you too dawg. when ya heading back huh? ive not spoken to you for like damn long la.
hahaha. when are you coming back.? iw as just readin ur blog. the rat's wicked sick yaw! but quite cool la. how come they dint have rats when we were doin bio in IJ.? all we had were onions and some heart. HAH!!! oh wells, call me soon please. thank you very much. i love you joey!

do i?

2007-04-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy.One look puts the rhythm in my head.Still I'll never understand why you hang around.I see what's going down.Cover up with makeup in the mirror,Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again.You cry alone and then he swears he loves youDo you feel like a man when you push her around?Do you feel better now--she falls to the ground.Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to endAs your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect;Every action in this world will bear a consequence.If you wait around forever you will surely drown.I see what's going down.I see the way you go and say you're right again,Say your right againHeed my lectureDo you feel like a man when you push her around?Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to endAs your lies crumble down, a new life she has foundFace down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"She said "I've finally had enough"Face down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"She said "I've finally had enough" One day she will tell you that she has had enough.It's coming round again.Do you feel like a man when you push her around?Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to endAs your lies crumble down, a new life she has foundDo you feel like a man when you push her around?Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to endAs your lies crumble down, a new life she has foundFace down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"She said "I've finally had enough"

2007-04-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

i thought today was sucha bad day
but im sure you know
its not all that hard to make nor happy again...
because....
just a few minutes ago....
i found favourite person's blog!!!
HAHAHAH!
okay bye kids

blanks

2007-04-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

okay,
so i havent been regularly updatin my blog.
but you see
when you have thing to do at home
that you dont wish to do
when youve got things to take care of
that you dont wanna

it tends ta take up the time i had for bloggin
well, im currently
at my mom's office

i did the one thing i tld myself id NEVER do.
i was teaching
yes, you guys got me right..
i was teaching kiddies.
something
i'd never do as a profession.

anyways,
movin on..
days been pretty good.
some couldnt be better
while others just doesnt deserve an explanation
yeah
hmm
im really glad school's startin next week
as mush as i despise it
id rather do that than do what ive been doin my whole vacation

the things i do
has become a routine
i do the same thing every god damn day
i wake up at the same time
i sleep at the same time
i do anything the same way.

i need some excitement
i need a change
i need ta get out of this place
cause theres only so much that i can take.

honestly,
its not that bad
when you;ve got people arnd you
who cares bout ur well being
but nothings bits the call one can get
from a special someone whos been gone for far too long.

i headed down to town last weekend
for stomp the floor
pretty interesting i must say
makes me wanna BOOGY!
HAHAAHAHAH!
saw some familiar faces
some i wish never existed.
bloody annoyance.
but what to do.
its a free world.
okay, not really..but you get wha i mean.

HAH!
oh wells,
9thapril.
i love this day
SURPRISE SURPRISE!!
hee hee.
rhanks dear
you really made my day.
8D

right..
you know GOD works in a funny way.
he has reasons for everything
and why sometimes we do a daily routine,
differently.
well, i know he was tryin to say something
it was really close..
a few inches away from it.
thank GOD!

okay now,
i thinkive crap enough.
i shall see you guys pretty sooon..

B, you know you seem to be able to see thru me
and you know when ive got something on my mind
thanks for allowing me to go all mad knowin, it'll only bring the old me back.
thank you so much.
what would i do if i dint have you on the very day...

sundays

2007-04-01T18:01:00.000+08:00

hey.
hmm,
its been a pretty good week.
many things happened.

26th march
out to town on monday.
some stuffs happened there.
but i dont wish to elaborate.
then,
it was to CGH
some smart ass got hiimself in there.
HAHAHA
pretty funny if you think bout it.
yeah..

hmm,
so i kinda spent my days there.
home-CGH-home
that was my daily routine..

till wednesday though.
he got discharged.
planned to go many places
but apparently he was in too much pain.
HAH.
loser~

but we got it all settled on thursday.
cause you see there was no way ima sacriface my friday nights
so yeah.

HAHAH!
dint do much though on friday.
headed out.
pretty memorable.
HEE HEE

then its off to al-ameen(food place at kembangan-changi rd) after that.
hmmm,
that day..
i must say..
many words spoken
many thoughts lingered.
its been long since i had such good conversation with ruben
bout anything and everything in our lives
from makin a decision whether or not to eat
to a topic bout love and its ways of working around us.

HAHAHAH!
hah, it was pretty indepth la.
so ya.
then saturday came.

went to town
chilled a lil bit.
pool-ed a lil bit.
then off to home.
headd down to the airport.
ruben was flying off to philippines.( did i get the spelling right)

oh, that bugger.
made me spent a whole week with him
and now he leaves for a week,
thanks ah brother.

OH OH!!
i played a prank on a friend
which turns out..
the joke wasn funny at all.
hahah!
so dont ask why i laughed.
cause i just did.

hmm, april's here.
and i wonder how its like..

friday night!

2007-03-31T00:24:00.000+08:00

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you'll help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

As I Look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies
You're the simplest love I've known
and the purest one I'll own
no you'll never be alone
My baby you
Are the reason I could fly
And cause of you
I don't have to wonder why
Baby you
There's no more just getting by
You're the reason I feel so alive

somehow,
this friday..
didnt seem like any other fridays.
today was filled with emotions
from the beginning right till the very end

hmm.
but i must say
its a day well spent.
8D

TUESDAY

2007-03-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

hello all!!
all of a sudden
it feels like i got a huge load of my back
feels like now.. can walk properly.
HAH!

sorry.
had to let you guys know that.
you know,
today
it dint bring me down at all.
the fact that..
it was such a minor thing...
and a total waste of my time
but ohs well.

thank god its over!
good riddance.
(sounds familiar)

2007-03-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

haha!
hello all.
yeah yeah its been long
much has happenned since the last time blogged
HAHAHA.
but you see.
i dont wanna talk bout it so yaa.

alrightd alrights
since all you buggers are pestering me to update
i shall crawl inside my own brain
and try to remember what happen okay
okay.

hmm,
oh yes.
sunday(11th march)
my cousin got married
mad hard busy yaw.
aint no break time.
not even five minutes for my daily dosage.
damn it.
it was so tiring
i fell asleep on the couch

monday(12th march)- tuesday(13th march)
i had papers.
hmm,
it was preety good la
aint that bad
could do it
my hands were aching though
from writing to much
went to study on monday afternooon for my next paper
and i watched
MUSIC & LYRICS on tuesday.
the movie's awesome im tellin you guys
you should go watch it
its real good.

wednesday
hmm..
where did i go today
OH YES!
i went out with mother today
as usual she was late
AN HOUR!
went ta tm
spent some time with lil FARAH
went to the arcade
yaada yaada yaada.
HAHAAH!
this kinda thing..
no need no elaboration.

thursday!
i went for lunch
met my mom at bugis
which btw,
was a total waste of time.
she dint even get what she wanted la.
at the end of the dy,
she came back empty handed.
ugh

FRIDAY!!!!
cause its friday night
and the feelings right
cause its friday night
ooh, whata night.
HAHAHAH!
met up with aazziee!
havent met this girl for ages la.
two months maybe
hmm, more?
ohswells.
catch up a lil
she obviously got a shock of her life
cause me, yub and shaunna
just couldnt stop dancing.
HAHAHAH!
every shop we entered,
we'd get down and boogie
OH YES
how can i forget.
i met bumped into someone special today
HEE HEE
its been long dude
really really long.
HAH.

lets see.
many ppl to loook at today.
the one in yellow.
the one at adidas.
the one passing by.
many.

Saturday
felt really weak
but i went out anyways.
met b at city hall
made our way to yck
cause he wanted to regster for bike lisence
turns out..
IT WAS CLOSED.
HAH.
loser.
headed down to vivo after that
met up with an old friend
NADIA.
ive not seen her for damn long la
bt she s just the same.
hahahah!

OUH.
then..there were models
HAWWTTT! models
a lil *snapsnap*
HAHAHAH!
go view b's blog.
nice pictures.
though i think..
me being in there. spoilt the whole thing.
HAHAHAAH.!!!
ohs wells.

headed down to united square later that night
chilled for a moment
headed home after that.

sunday
as usual.
it stay home sunday for me.
AHHHAHA!
oh, i woke up at TWO THIRTY
im a pig ey?
HEH

and today.
i dont think im goin anywhere to day.
besides the fact that ive got laundry to do
a room to clean.
and anass to lazy to do anything
HAHAAH!!

hmm,
here's a lil somthing for all of us.
we all know that the blog is here
to express our emtions
be it good or bad.
happy or sad.
whether or not the entry is being refered to a certain someone.
is really up to the reader.
cause you see
even if i were to state the name
but as a reader you think otherwise.
then theres nothing i can do.
can i?

so what im tryin to get at is.

dont judge me by the way i look
dont criticize the way i dress
dont try to know me like reading a book
dont judge me by the cover

2007-03-06T22:40:00.001+08:00

hello wello
anyways blogger's being a pain in the butt!
as always but who cares.
who isnt right.

so,
i went to school today
yes, SCHOOL
as i was sayin..
i went to school
early and shit
only to know
CLASS WAS CANCELLED
and no monkey donkey idiot could have told me know
freaking annoyin i swear
ugh.
anyways, movin on.

hahah
i need to start studyin.
HEH.

2007-03-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

my days

2007-03-06T09:40:00.000+08:00

2nd march 2007

every move i make is wrong
every step i take is wrong
no right words come out from my mouth
even my thinkin is not on the right track anymore
nothung i do is right
nothing i say is right

how do i redeem myself from here
from this point of which im standin at
ive tried my bst to come up with solutions for everything
but all seems to fail
nothing seems to work

i think abut it all the time
till i dont have enough strength to do anything else
my days are filled with questions
to which i have no answers to
tryin mybest to be logical
to be fair
to balance everything out
but nothin is like that AT ALL

it affects me till i shut my eyes
though, it daunts e in my sleep still
nightmares? you can say that

what do i do
waht do i say
what are steps i gotta take

theses are some of the questions
that run thru my head now
is there an avenue i could go
an opening to theses questions

i try my best not to think bout it at times
but i'll just end up being in the same position
am i not trying
not tryin hard enough

this game at which i gamble
not knowin if im playin my cards right
will i looose it all to my very last dime
or would i get something good in the end

3rd march 2007

i woke up today
havin the urge to cry
like everything was crumbling
right before my eyes
all of a sudden
all that once got me thinking came back
catching me off guard
not knowin what to do
i allowed the emotions and thoughts roam my mind
i dint know if i was really up
whether or not it was a dream or a NIGHTMARE
im feelin how i felt before
all down and low
like life has lost its purpose
and the next thing i knew
i lost it
tears came down
yet my questions werent answered

if only things were as easy as before
wait, what am i talkin about
it was that easy
i just screwed things up.

DAUGHTRY- IT S NOT OVER

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life
but good things in life are hard to find
We'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
Well I'll try to do it right this time around
Let's start over
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over
I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood
Well I'll try to do it right this time around
Let's start over
Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over
We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out
Let's start over
We'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over
Let's start over
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killin me
But you're the only one
It's not over

2007-03-01T18:05:00.000+08:00

helloworld
yeah yeah
i havent been bloggin
bigg deal

anyways.
lots has happen in this month.
as in feb la
but yeah
i dont even remember what.

other than..
valentines day
11th
danceworks
27th
and
bla bla bla

but anyways,
its been filled with ups and downs
some im proud of
some im not
i shant say it here

ive actually lost my mood to blog
but for the simple reason that everythings outta my head
cause i got interrupted just now
so yeah..
BLAME EM KIDS!

[warmness on the soul.]
Your hazel green tint eyes watching,
Every move I make.
And the feeling of doubt,
It's erased.
I'll never feel alone again,
With you by my side.
You're the one,
And in you I confide
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love,
Was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love has always been,
True as can be.
I'll give my heart to you.
I give my heart,
'Cause nothing can compare in this world to you, whoa, oh.
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love,
Was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love has always been,
True as can be.
I'll give my heart to you.
I give my heart,
'Cause nothing can compare in this world to you, whoa, oh.
I'll give my heart to you.
I give my heart,
'Cause nothing can compare in this world to you, whoa, oh.

okay, somethings just dont need an explanation.
im so exhausted from every thing that im on the verge of breakig down.
someone please save me.
ive done way too many things thats wrong.
i dont know how to make things right again

girlfriend,
im sorry i havent been the ideal one this month
yeah, i know there aint no excuse for that
i know what ive been this whole time
things i dont tell you
but find out from other people..
from her,
im really sorry
-sigh-

i dont even know where to begin..
but please give me some time
you will know all bout it in time to come
you call and i dont pick up
you text and i dont reply
i dont even meet up with you

yes, i know im a disappointment
especially to you
i screwed up
BUT
i still am the same nor you knew
i guess i messed up
wait, i KNOW i messed up
BADDD

please give me a chance to explain myself
to tell you why i did things as such
to answer ur questions
to redeem myself
and change for the better

dont walk away from me just yet

girlfriend.

2007-02-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

hmm,
what can i say..
ive got a frggin EYE INFECTION la!
bloody fuck.
now ive got to walk around with only one eye
its superbly exhausting ima telling yawl
what to do..

if thats not bad enough
my eye hurts lke no ones business la.
it itches yet i cant scratch it
thought im dyin to.
i feel like gorgin my eye balls out ima tellin you.
ugh.

anyways,
off ta starbucks today.
to meet the usuals.
chilled talk nonsense.
made some decisions
but im still thinkin bout it.
damn i la.
oh wells now.
headed home.
and now im a the com.

okay so being sick aint all that bad.
i dont have to get my ass to school for two days
8D
HEE HEE.

but it hurts when i strain my eye too much
so maybe i shld get off the com
and go to sleep
AHAH!
just maybe.

whats goin on.
i also dont know
what to do
take it slow

wrong but i did it anyways
what can i do now??
go on with it.
i hope i can.

2007-02-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

well hello world
hmm,
this is super random
we cant always be with the one we adore
okayla.
not so random but ya.
anyways,
i think this entry is gonna be as messy as my brain.
the fact that there's so many things but i just dont know how to put it to words.
so if you dont get it.
TOO BADD!
but then again..
maybe this song might explain it.

Verse 1
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Chorus
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Verse 2
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to god he hears you and

Chorus
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Verse 3
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Chorus (2)
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life How to save a life

im tryin to hold on but i feel ike giving up.
someone save me.

myself

2007-02-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

you bring WARMTH
on a rainy day

you LIGHT it up
on a gloomy day

you make it all seem RIGHT
on a day that goes all wrong

you make me BELIEVE
on days i loose the trust

you give ASSURANCE
on a cloudy day

you PICK ME UP
on days i slip

you WIPE it off
on a day i pour

i guess there's somethings in life
we cant do without

im only hopin
i could bring it back to stay..

im done.

2007-02-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

im tired
literally,mentally
there's just so much that i can take
there's just so much that i can do
im sorry
but im MIGHT loose it

im trying
i realy am
but it seems, it makes no difference

bruised heart;
swollen eyes;
over exerted mind.
it's still the same.

honestly,
im at the end of it all.
and there's just one thing to say..

i feel me pullin me away
i feel me stoppin myself
i feel me denyin the truth
i feel me givin up everything

someone once told me,
im better off being *** *** **
is it true.?
am i?
have i been that bad??

perhaps maybe i have
cause i dont remember,
anywhere in the past,
me being this way.

late nights and early days

2007-01-31T06:01:00.000+08:00

HEY!
i got my connecetion back.
HEE hee.
okay la. so its been a few days..
but im excited still.
HAHAHAH!

anyways, its sixohfive on a wednesday morning
and i just ended doin school stuffs.
HAHAH!
tell me im good.
yawl must be thinkin why the hell am i up at such hours when i shld be sleeping still.
well guess what..
i dint even sleep ta begin with.
HAHAAHH!

and now that its alomost time to get up
(that is if i were sleepin la)
im too scared to fall asleep.
cause that whaat i did yesterday.

i was up till six.
i was exhausted i wanted some shut eye
for lets say..ten minutes or so.
but turns out, i woke up at nine thirty.!!!
my gawd!

so, lesson learnt.
never sleep when its almost time ta get up
HAHAHAAH!
like today.
andim tryin to keep myself awake by bloggin or something..

but then again,
the fact that im half dead
and that im not even thinkin straight..
i highly doubt this entry makes any sense
HAHAHAAH!
aint i just the funniest??? 8D

anyways,
no matter how late i stay up at night
i know ive always got company
he keeps me up all night.
my light. my savour.

i really wonder what id do w/o him
after all this time.
jsut to stay up with me.
he's good.

what am i to do...
without you, COFFEE

BAAHAHAHAH!!!

right,
movin on..
i reckon this entry's gonna be wordy
haha!
but who cares
life's been good really.
treatin me well. with love and respect.

let me see if i can remember what happened..
but then again, its better left unsaid.
cause things are better of this way..

i love you,is that okay.?

H.I.M - vampire heart

2007-01-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

life's been ona roller coaster ride these past few days
but i guess life's just that way.
i really wanna be with you. only you.

You can't escape the wrath of my heart
Beating to your funeral song
All faith is lust for hell regained
And love dust in the hands of shame

Let me bleed you this song
Of my heart deformed
And lead you along this path in the dark
Where I belong
Until I feel your warmth

Hold me like you held onto life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me like you loved the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

I'll be the thorns on every rose
You've been sent by hope
I am the nightmare waking you up
From the dream of a dream of love

Let me weep you this poem
As Heaven's gates close
And paint you my soul,
Scarred and alone
Waiting for your kiss to take me back home

Hold me like you held onto life
When all fears came alive and emtombed me
Love me like you loved the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

somone once told me
that this is a nice song.

if i shaped myself to fit your mould

2006-12-30T02:39:00.000+08:00

hmm,
its back ta ma crib yaww
after three days.
HAH

stayed home on monday and tuesday
bbq on wednesday
hmm, besides the fact it was pourin,
i shant elaborate.
hee.back ta joey's after that.
laughing our ass off to sleep
haha!
comin up with stupid shits.

"welcome to tangkok.!"
HAHAHAH!!

everyone,
quiet now.
settle down.. and!
"TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT!!"
[with the hand movements and all]

haah!
sorraye.
i think not all of you would actually know what im talkin bout.
HAHA!

anyways,
off to town the next day.
we caught "a night in the house"
that shows hilarious im tellin you
my god!
HAHA!!
met a couple of people after that.
yeah.

OOH!
then we headed down to momo.
hmm, now this is another i dont wish to elaborate.
what happens stays where it happens.

Next day~
haah!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEOY!!
lovin ya ta bits!
8D

hmm,
three in the mornin
and yet im up and awake
fuck the sickness

i aint got no cell mann.

2006-12-25T18:26:00.000+08:00

AAHH.
finally,
a rest day after sucha busybusy week.

out with joey on monday
AAH! that girls back
like finally la
hmm, heh.

tuesday
its my day!!
HAHAH!
joey,bev,roach,azie and mae
came over to my place
such bitches ima telling yawl
one surprised me with a cake
the other kept all innocent
but the best ever is i got my..
SWEETCREAMANDCOOKIES!!
yay.! wheee...
off for dinner with parents after that
haha!
with good food and great company
what fun can i not have

thanks guys.!
really really enjoyed my day.
i must say, its the best one ever!

wednesday
off ta vivo city
with bev and joey
watched "the holiday"
ohh wow!
its a great movie
yawl should go catch it
HAH!
met dern too!
head down to town after that
man, its damn packed la.
i swear i hate walkin when there's a major crowd
did a lil shoppin.
thanks for the top joey!
then to marina square after that
joey drove!!
ohmygod! the horror
i never wanna be inthe car when she parking.
AAHAHHA!
met double d.YAY!
home after that.

thursday
I STAYED HOME!
surprise surprise
HAHAH!
not really actually
i went out in the evening
BAHAHAHA!
headed dwn to tm
(my aunts place that is)
preparations for the weddign that is

friday
went out for a birthday celebration.
i must say it was pretty good.
haha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABEL.

saturday/sunday
WEDDING!!
so exhausted la
i dint sleep
gosh.

monday(25th)
A MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!
something hapenned durin the weekend
that has caused me to b phone-less
i cant reply text message
cause its such a hassle.
it annoys me im telling you

here's a lil food for thought--

CONTRADICTIONS
everyones filled with it
no matter how much some denies it
it happens
but for those who are there
to actually witness the mistake
are usually left confused
thats something
dontcha think?

oh wells.
i guess the best way
is to leave it alone
and allow the person goin through it
to realize for themselves
then,can they solve it their way

to me,
this is the bet conclusion
whadyawl think huh?

oh wells,
just things that got me thinkin.

pictuurres

2006-12-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

fillin up time in the ladies while roach dolls herself up. HEE.

hey dear, happy happy eighteenth. HAHA. hope you enjoyed yourself ayte. lovin you lots.

waitin for the bus
starbucks suntec
starbuck california fitness
spinelli's at heeren
train to cck

okay now

just a couple of pics

this is what happens when nor gets bored

heehee.

well hello all.

its been a pretty lonng longgg time ey.

hmm, school's finally over.

like WHOOPPPEEDOOO!!

anyways,

here's a lil thought

is it better to tell one how you truely feel

or to just go on and look over it

is it good to keep it all inside

only lettin it out when you no longer can take it

or speak ur mind 24/7

thats all.

HAHA

joey's comin back,

like in a few hours please

hah!

so exciting

hmm

its been a pretty cool week

i must say

loads of chillin.

such super good company

lots and lots of meet ups

(withlongtimenoseeppl that is)

HAHA!

pretty enjoyable

uhhuh.

;)

looking back on yesterdays

2006-12-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

as i look back on yesterdays
ive come to realize
the pattern im in
constantly doin the same thing

im tryin my best right now
to change my ways
no matter the consequences
i'll try my best

is that good or bad
cause right now,
as im doin i so..
it doesnt look that good

so many things thats been left unsaid
so many things we refuse to admit
so many things we had/have/want to let go
so many thing we try to ignore

but where does this lead us?
run.
yeah it helps
but only for a moment
stay and solve
yeah that helps too
but tough
and loads of obstacles

i guess
its all up to an individual
which is more comfortable for em
im sure we've all felt this,
the feeling of loosing
besides the fact that it happens everyday
and im pretty sure we dont wanna go through it
but we have no choice

as it ever occurred to us
that every single person
whom we once knew
would always be in our memories
only depending on whether
they're top priority or not

oh wells,
whatever it might be
whatever my eyes might see
whatever my heart mght feel
whatever my mind thinks
whatever my ears hear

it will all just be..
yesterdays

finally

2006-11-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

after so long
after much determination
we got the results we needed
way ta go guys!

hmm.
what can i say
the week's pretty much the same
same thing goin on
just with more excitement this time

i guess they're right
no one can bring you down but yourself
no one can bring you up but yourself too
its all bout knowin waht you want
and when you need it
no point holdin on
yknwoin its a waste of your time
i obviously gotthat idea the long way
but oh well
i got it anyways

thinking back,
it made me ponder
that one thing that i once had control of
that i could handle
that i could cheat around at
has gotten back to get me
bite me in the ass

made me realize
what that words really meant
whether to take literally or not

they say,
spread the love
they say,
be honest
they say,
let there be trust

but actions speaks louder than words
and sometimes its so tought to the as stated
no one said it wont be bumpy
no one sait it wld be smooth too

so this is what ive learnt
when a problem arises
dont try so hard to find out who to blame
dont say it aint your fault either
cause you might never know
just solve it.

2006-11-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

wow
half a week has yet to pass
yet im already feeling so exhausted

there were a couple of bumps that i had to go through this past two weeks
that left me completely lost
not knowin what to do
and stuffs like that
but its all good now
i dont need nobody to make my life worth while

anyways, i went to school as per normal today
but somehow,it was different
i gained some knowledge that caught me by surprise
that make me ponder and straighten things out in life

i used to ask myself why things are as such
why things were the way they were
that like you know,
nothing goes as planned
why there are things out there
simply just to test us
i fully understand that now

i guess different people have different mindsets
and how we cant force them to think the way we do
how everyone grew up different
so no way are they gonna be like you

freak it mann..
i had so much to say then
but now my minds a blank
maybe im just too exhausted
mentally.physicall.mentally.

i've got things to do
datelines to meet
people to contact
assignments to complete
notes to go through

no worries.
im not complaining
im actually enjoyin every moment of it.

ps:mind me for being quiet evrytime we have a get together.

happiest day ever

2006-11-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

hahah!
im a very happy kid

let it go
if it doesnt belong to you
let it go

after much experience
ive figured how not to hold on
figured how to get over shits quick
and how things just dont go ur way

anyways,
im happy now
hope yawl'd be happy for me too
cause i would

bye all..

is it wrong

2006-11-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you,
tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you,
tell you I need you
Tell you i set you apart

So Tell me your secrets
and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles,
coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy, oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard
oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science,
science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

So Tell me you love me,
come back and hold me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing up tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy, Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard

I´m going back to the start

she will b loved

2006-11-15T10:53:00.000+08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Maybe now its my turn to do what you have been doin all this while.

dangerously in love

2006-11-14T10:31:00.000+08:00

I love you... I love you, I love you

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
~~Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl~~
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

thanks alot.
i'll be fine
dont wrry bout me
dont blame yourself for this
shits happen for a reason
and im sure theres a very good reason behind this.
make your choice.

recovering

2006-10-20T10:38:00.000+08:00

WHOW!!
its only been one week
since school started
and im liek already dyin la
damn,
my body is so not used to gettin up eaarly and all
blooody fuck face
anyways, ive lost my mood fr bloggin
so yeah
and besides im not doin too good
oh got this song form one of ma mates
yeah its old
but yeah
its nice
i like it
its a sona by tlc la.
if im not wrong

ohmagwadd

2006-10-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

hey all
hmm, so i havent really been bloggin
cause there aint much to blog anyways

OOH!
i headed down ta VIVO CITY todayy
damn, that place is awesome mann
totally shoppers paradise
its so huge mind you..!!
did i go crazy
or did i go CCRRAAAZAAYYEEEE!!!!
HAH.
go ask mae and yub.
HEE.
oh. and they keep on sayin i sound like a BIMBO
like hell no!
never please
hah.
ANYWAYS, vivo city..
ohmygod we like spent the whole day there
like for a good 4 hours plus (i think)
i swear i dint even like getta check da whole place la.
i havent been to GAP MANGO ADIDAS and bla bla bla
there's so mannny shhhoppps!
HEH
im so excited please
OOH OHHH!
i tried on this pair or red heels from aldo
and HOMAGWD!
im tellin you..
those heels are gorgeous la
absolutely stunning!
HAHAH!
yes yes.
nor is goin crazy over HEELS.
amazing huhh.

(mind the ugly tummy. focus on THE SHOE ppl)

off to town ( but again) after that
met roach.
oh how i miss that bugger
HAH!
mm, even that asswipe said i sounded bimbotic
do i.?
but no really
do i.???
OH WELLS!

oh yes.!
mae n i wenta golden mile earlier
is that what its called.??
they sell super cheap stuffs there la!
i bought MAT SHOES
HEEHEE
BUT it doesnt look mat-ish on me
really, it doesnt
it look superduper coool.
HEH HEH

okay okay
so today was a pretty exciting day
if only all my days were like today
(did i sentence even make sense)
HEH.

shall i go tanning tmr
what shall i wear
do i really sound like a bimbo
or is it just the entry.
mmmmm, ponders

meant to be

2006-09-28T02:28:00.000+08:00

hey ho
damn im tired
oh well

maybe things were meant to be this way
maybe things are better off like that
maybe it was time to go
maybe everything just has its place to go
maybe god has his reasons of doing so

tonight's yet another sleepless night
i ano why its so tough ta get some shut eye
it annoys me at times

this week's been really exhaustin
lots of travelling done
home woodlands to mom's office to woodlands
really tired
and i did this for a whole
pfft

thank god i got to rest tonight
the fact that routine starts again next week
i just miss chillin at home
the one place i rest
but oh wells
somethings just wont be the same

ANYHOOS,
ziezie ziezie
thanks dear
thanks alot for tonight
(or should i say last night
the fact that its 4 in the mornin alrdy)
i really needed that
to just let everythin go
and laugh it off
(actually thinkin bout it now, cracks me up)

okay,
soi had lots to say
but its all gone now
i hate it when that happens
drats
eff it.

2006-09-22T02:54:00.000+08:00

okay now
im actually too lazy ta blog bout whats been goin on
no mood la.
'll update this weekend yes.?
yes.

to a really special friend,
thanks for tonight
for your shoulder
thanks for the call
that made be better
huggs

azie and roach and mae,
yes, i changed it.
but again
i just dont feel like sharin at this moment
yes, im being selfish
but please do understand..
when im feelin better and a lil more open
yawl be the first to know.
loves

cherre cherre
please hurry
you are taking forever
quick end ur exams.!
then we can go partyy.
((:

myohsointerestingday

2006-09-18T19:59:00.000+08:00

ok now
so it was PLANNED to head out
to go find my purple cloth thing for hari raya
BUT apparently momma changed her mind
due to this i stayed home and this is what i did

i woke up at one
[yes yes so ima piggy,sue me]

had my lunch and i came online
knowiwn everyone's at school
or busy studying
i kept myself occupied by friendster-ing
quite fun a must say
viewed pretty much loads of profile
pics and such
but i dint bother updating mine.
heh
lazy la
dint have the mood actually
so, i was doin taht for like close to five hours.
HAHAH!
interesting ey.

then i headed down ta get some stuff in the car
and also for a smoke..
okay okay
this is the part it gets interesting.

when i was done
came up and settled down and stuff,
less than five minutes..
dada said: ey, go down help me buy titbits.
i was like.. ufweuifcbdv.! wtf.! i just came up la.
tired know. up and down..
[obviously, i dint say this out la.]

so now im back
with lots of titbits
i swear im gonna grow fat
oh wait, make thatt FATTER
the fact that im already FAT.
hahaha.!
okay im off now
im tired.
from what?
i also dont know
HAAHAH

there's ANTM tonight!
whoopeedoo!

bye all.

and to dern,
thanks for tolerating my nonsense
and annoying the shit outta ya
but we all know u enjoyed it right..???
[dont you dare deny that]
heh heh. kidding..
see you thursday!!

reallove

2006-09-18T14:44:00.000+08:00

oh gawd.!
someone please save me
im dyin of boredom right here at ma crib
ive got nothing to do
ugh.
the thing bout havin a vacation while others are still schooling.
ppft.
this sucks mann
oh wells.
stupid ruben for using the com da whole effin day yesterday
but its okay
its all mine now.
BAHHAHAHA.!
uhhmm.
okay okay
im loosing it.

anyways,
ruben's got this song thats dam nice la.
and now the song's stuck in ma head.
haha!
damn matminah la.
so typical of him.
but me liking it doesnt make me onee,
does it.???
hee hee.
oops.!
it goes something like..
every now and then
bla bla bla.
i forgot
hee hee.
oops oops.!
okay okay.
i shall stop typin nonsense
and go figure something outta do.
haha!

bye all.

2006-09-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

aaah,
i can finally blog.
stupied laptop refuses ta log me in.
ugh.
irritants.
anyhoos.
this past onee weeks has been like majorly happening man.
as in like, its so filled la.
hahah!

monday.
off ta school business paper.
then met mae in town.
to study this time
and yes i studies alrights.
actually,not really.
just chiiled.
hahaha!
bev came after school.
that girl.
tsk tsk.
refuse to walk over ta spins cause it was raining.
HAH!
BIMBO PLEASE.

tuesday,
out studyin fer my accounting paper on wednesday
and yes this time i really really studied ok.
i was so stressed out.
i swear i was so exhausted from like tryin ta understand that stupid shit.
and the thing is i took accounts in ij.
HAHAHAH!

wednesday.
sat for the paper.
mad hard la.
damn it.
my accounts didnt balance.
hahah!
oh wells.
rushed ta town ta meet mae
passed her my calculator
then rushed ta meet momma.
i rushed but somehow i was still late.
and the shop was already closed.
damn wasted luh.
dang.
anyhoos,
mom met mae for the first time
haha!
it was hilarious la.!
"how come mae like you?"
haha!
inside joke.
shant elaborate.
hahha!
dinner with momma then headed back home.

thursday,
went out with momma.
i was late AGAIN
she was so pissed off.
suppose ta meet her at twelve
and at twelve i was only at tananh merah.
and im meetin her at bugis btw.
hahha!!
since i had no more paper,
i accompanied the rest ta study.
which tehy dint.
waited for bev ta come.
had lj fer dinner then yub came.
haha!
he's the sweetest thang aloive
i swear.
hee.OOPS>!

friday,
whoa.!
today's the best.
actually not really.
there's parts which was really goood
and parts i just dont wish ta talk bout.
overall it was pretty good.

saturday.!
WOOHOOO>>!
so much much much fun.!
hahah!
felt a lil sick tho.
but i'll survive.
sik only.
not as though im like dyin.
hahah!
i met chiechie after so long.!!
-screams-
i miss that bitch.
so caught up,we hardly meet.
hahaha!

EEYYY,
not bad uh.
my memory aint that bad.
i can remember what happen this week.
WITHOUT the reference of my diary.
haha!
cool right.
okok.
anywyas.
betcha tmr's pretty slack.
im stayin home.
haha!

SHOUT OUTS.

1. good luck to people sittin fer their promos
2. and for those sittin fer prelims now
3. and the o level ppl
4. OOH! N level too. heh.
5. i miss nickie already. )): its been too long.heh.

["things will never be"]

2006-09-02T01:04:00.001+08:00

wah!
today was such a bad day la.
spoil my mood ima telling ya
ugh
annoyin piece of shit!
ugh.
the thought of it is enough to get me all pissed off.
ROARS!!

mind ur own business bitch
get off my back
what is it to you
why are you always in my way?
get lost
i dont even wanna know you
stay out of my life.
oh just so you know.
i NEVER EVER wanna have anything to do with you.
at all.
yeah
see this.
get out.
BITCH
yeah cry all you want
cause like you said.
I NOR NADIA NATASHAH DO NOT CARE

anyways,
today was supose ta b a happy day!
but apparently it wasnt
damn it la.
met mae in tp today
prepared a lil something for a friend
then off to town we went
heh
with roach n jes too!
ROACH>>!!! where are you!!
i need you now.!!
HAHA!!
met bev in town today
moomoo, we have yet to have a proper talk la.
damn it.
nehmind nehmind.
next week okay okay??
bumped sarah n gwen after that
then shit happened.
dont wanna talk bout it.

wanted to go play pool later
but because its friday,it was super crowded la.
ended up goin to the arcade.
i played my PUZZLE BUBBLE
haha!
yay!
im happy
hee hee
headed down ta rockys
the usual
and taaddaaa!!! im home
heh

hmm..
i reckon tmr wld b a pretty good day.
haha!
much more relaxed and not as tensed as it was today

though sometimes somethings just wont leave my mind
my thoughts would constantly linger around
and my mind wld always b filled with unanswered questions

its too strong
its goin on everyday
no idea how long
but its never comin my way

for a FRIEND i miss dearly.

[And I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side]

meant to be

2006-08-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.
if things are meant to be
it will happen right
if it aint
then just forget it yawl

anyhoos,
goin to school today
was a total bore
and a waste of my time
i was there for like less than ttwenty minutes
and we were dismissed
bloody hell.
waste ma dough
dang
stupid teacher's day celebration.
which none of my class peeps attend
neither did we attend classes.
HAH

oh wells.
off ta chill as usual with the usuals.
haha!
great bunch really
fun fun FUN
hmm, then where did i go after tht.?
oh yes,
met mae and alls.
chilled
but again
HAHAH!

oh man.
cant believe it.
its all gone la.
all eighty of it.
and now im left with none of it.
HAH.
worth it???

happy birthday.![get the drift]

have you ever

2006-08-31T02:37:00.000+08:00

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you (have you, have you ever needed) ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever

hmm hmm..
so i got chased outta class today
heh
my bad
no biggy
they dint do anything anyways.
heh
had the usual
and of to town..for
CHEESECAKE
hah.
with kecik.
then met up with mae,kaevis and jes.
haha!
such great company.
its good.
heh

hmmm.
mom was bein unreasonable
got knows whats her problem
but its ok
i'll just ignore it
hah
as usual.

it's teachers' day
i wanna go back school but apparently i cant
cause i've got school
but then again,
am i really really attendin a full day of school??
hah!
nobody seems is.
so lets just see.

okay,\i have nothing to say anymore
bye world

im inlove
what is one to do when one is inlove
show and confess our feeling to thee beloved

or keep my mouth shut
denying whats in the heart
though it hurts like a dart

so what if i were to declare
just for the sake of clearing the air
wld i take this as a dare
just too see how long id last in despair

im in love
im in love alrights
one thing im sure of in life
but its with the wrong being
getting involve with all sort of things
dont know if id be whole or break
for im inlove with the one,
who causes me heartaches.

//its amazing how that one person that brightens ur day
put you down at the same timee//

For you i will

2006-08-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

Fight the feeling
Leave it alone
Cause if it ain't love it just ain't enough
To leave a happy home
Let's keep it friendly
You have to play fair
See, I don't care
But I know she ain't gon' wanna share

Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you'll think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
But I'm goin' to pack my things and go

OH MAN OH MAN
alli wannt wish for tonight is..
never again to re-live these past two days.
its too exhaustin just thinkin bout it.
hmm.
mayb i'll just stay a step back
and lay low.
thats how it goes anyways.

i swear gotta b having deja vu.

this is bad.!
aahh..
am i or am i not prepared.
its comin real soon alrights
and i have no idea how ta handle it.
dang.!

2006-08-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

wenta esplanade today.
got the ohsolate project done.
chilled.
died.

hmmm.
damn,
today's so freaking exhausting la.
oh fish.
anyways,
hear me whine.

suddenly, this part of a song just suits me ohsowell now.
"when it comes to me dont even notice me."
it sucjs when this happens
but i guess its just natural
cause it happens all the time

my every move is done with caution.
my every step causes an impact.
my every word thats been said means something.
i hate it when it feels this way.
oh wells.

sighs. it sucks feeling this way, really.
especially when i know.
its totally outta my way.
and there's so many others that are in the same boat as me.
but somehow.. it feels like
at the end if the race, they'll get something from you.
but as for me, i'll just sink with the boat..

i wont say ve given my everything
cause i dint
i wont say i love you endlessly
cause im forcing myself not to
but just to let you know its all good
i'll just do what i gotta..

where are you.

2006-08-20T12:43:00.002+08:00

towned on fridays n saturdays
as usual.
AWESOME's the word
with such superduper great company
it takes my mind of things
aint that good.?
heh.
it seems so long
when it has only been a while
this was meant to be easy
then why do i feel this way.?
(nickie)

frustration.its killing me slow.

hhmm.NICKIE
whered you go.?
i miss you so.
seems like its been forever
since you've been gone.
oh man,i feel bad inside
i feel lost without you.
my entertainment
my buddy
your gone.
its been like ages since i last saw you.
and i hardly keep in contact with you either
've become such a significant part of my life
that i cant live without you
whats takin you so long.?
from that day,
till the next time i see you,
(which i dunno when)
it's like so so so far away.
come back quick
im beggin you.

Nickie,come back soon.
i miss you. )):
[if you see me walkin by,
and the tears are i my eyes
look away,baby look away.]

suckerr.

2006-08-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

well hello world.!
fuck it.
im damn tired BUT pcd's hot hurr.
wow.! 2in1.
lovely.
just what i need at this moment of time.
HEH.
they do wonders ima tellin yawl.
HAHAHA.
anyhoos.
chinnychinchin just screwed me upside down.
if i dont get my ass ta school,im get kicked out.
dang.
but walau its not lke i dint come fer like a whole effin month la.
its like only five days la.
and there are peeps who are worse than me la.
bloody hell.
small my day only la.
damn it.
ugh.
anyways, movin on.
this weeks's been pretty fucked up.
've got ppl askin me shits i despise answering.
what, do i loook that sort.
IM NOT.
get the point.?
yeah truth bites.
so.?
sue me.
i dont care.
im sick n tired n keepin up with other ppl
being the person you want me to be.
leave me alone
and i promise id do the same to you.
cause right now at this moment,
the thought of you makes me sick.
leave me alone.
IM BEGGIN YOU.

Some day, when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight
You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft
There is nothing for me but to love you
And the way you look tonight
With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose
It touches my foolish heart
Lovely, never ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight

gotta change my ways.
hate where im at right now.
nothing seems ta cheer me up.
and nothing could ever out a smile on my face anymore.

OH fUCK THE EMO_NESS in me.
Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like on
Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

//just for you i'll wait forever
how silly it seems//

it sucks that after all this while,
things a better off left alone.

uhhmm.

2006-08-13T18:41:00.002+08:00

alrights now.
its been one really really busy week ima tell yawl.
okok
lets see if i cant remember.
heh

school as usual on monday..
nationalday celebration in school on tuesday..
quite alright la..
there were like..
belly dancers
cheerlleadin
dance
and blablabla.
HAH
OH OH>>!
i went for fireworks.!
wah, gorgeous la.
plus the great company.
hmm...splendid.
must say it was a pretty good day that tuesday.
life's good when u dont expect.
haha!

ANYWAY..
NDP at kallang with MAE on friday
I swear we're like the only two ppl who were so hyper la.
scream and shout all.
hahah!!
fun.pure fun
heh.
mae wld agree wldnt you.?

supposedly school on thurs.
but we all know other wise.
hahah
oops.!
oh nvm.
i wont bother explaining.
hahaha!
met bev and all.
at cine.
the usual.
heh.

FRIDAY!
hmm...pretty ayte.
aint that big ofa deal.
MEET UPS MEET UPS.
hahaha!

saturday
towned.
went for some stupid dinner
which mmade my tummy bloat like noone business
dont even get me started bout saturday mann.

SUNDAY!!
yay!
its supppose ta b rest day.
BUT im rushing thru a prject which was like dued last friday.
DANG!
im screwed.
actually im not.
hhah! dunno already la.
hahahah!!
alright alright..
off ta do more work..

hopin next week wd b a better week.

uhhmm.

2006-08-13T18:41:00.001+08:00

uhhmm.

2006-08-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

2006-08-08T00:08:00.001+08:00

oh wells.
this week is a much better week
actually cant say just yet
it has only been one day
HAH

anyhooss.
something unexpected happen today
like wth la.
ugh
whatever

anyways,
schoool as usual.
sat for a paper.
omg..
im sucha doofus
did the most stupidest mistake ever
damn careless la now.
bloody hell..
hope it wont cause me much
)):
hmm, i swear school nvr cld have been better
the on e and only place i look forward ta
its so time consuming.
IM LOVIN IT THERE.
and the company.?
whow. PERFECT.
8D

i neer did realise this
but im realy thankful for things
i mean, i dont say this often la but yeah..
oh shuddup now.
HAHAHA.

anyways,
tmr's like nationaldaycelebration
ima be fannin satay yawl.
swear its gonna b extra yummy.
HAHAAH
i shd b sleepin by now really.
hhaha!
oh well.
dunno dont care..

You whisper in my ear
But are your words sincere
Cause pretty words can cut just like a knife
You see I'm nobody's fool
I play by my own rules
So please think twice before you step into my life

And I can’t hide the tears
Cause even though you’re here
Feels like you’re a million miles away

sunday night

2006-08-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm.
time passes by reallly fast when ur having fun
ve got so much to do
in such lil time
so much datelins ta meet
so much standards ta reach

everythin seems out of reach
will i make it..?
make it thru it all..

ps:i take back what i said in my previous entry.

anyways,
im gettin really exhausted.
just a moment ago i felt so much
but as we speak,
parts of it starts to stray.
damn.
why.?
it scary to think of what could have been
or whether its comin to an end

ihope it comes to an end
then i can cut that string that draggin me
too haevy for far to long.

oh wells.
lets all hope next week's a better week..
so many free days.
im sure i'll fill my time..

2006-08-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

i'll love you no matter what.

wow, this week is sucha hactic week.
i seem ta be filled with so much everyday.
it seems like there's no rest.

oh wells.
im way too exhausted ta blog it please.
hopin tmr would b a better day.
surprised.

warmness of the soul-.

another night

2006-08-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

hey all,
wow! this week's really exhausting.
im not even half way thru it.
damns.
why?

've been so caught up
that i dont have time ta do anything else
everything's goin so fast and
it stops for nothing.
gettin up early
spendin train time of at least 1 1/2 hours
gettin to school
and bla bla bla..
and how i realise im laggin
and that exams are comin

it sucks really.
dams.
and now i cant even get some sleep.
ugh.
fuck sleepless nights.

monday mornin

2006-07-31T10:12:00.000+08:00

hello people..!!
no no, im not home.
im in school.
and im EARLY.!
heh heh heh
this doesnt happen often ya know...
anyhooss..
i don wanna be early anymore mann.
no one's here yet.
they're all late.
damn it.
i shld just come late.
heh heh heh heh heh.
oh wells..

im bored
im bored
what is one to do when one is bored..??

JOEY: yo dawg, its so hard ta talk wit ya thru msn.it keeps on screwin up. its either i dont get ur replies or you don get mine. damn, this sucks.. damn it. stupid melbourne for having such bad connections.stupid internet. bloddy hell.. uhhmm..
I MISS YA..! ps:i feel so free after school. heh.

LALALALALALA..!!!
sir's not here yet..!
he's late.
whenim early, he's late.
wth sia.

wah, you damn sway today sia kecik..
he came like just b4 you did uh.
hehehe..

ok ok ok.
gtg now.
later yawl.

good day

2006-07-30T02:08:00.000+08:00

hahah!
today's a good day.
its a "wholedaylaugh" day.
HAHAHAHAHAHA...!

hmm, went for honours day in the mornin.
bloody hell.
hall so hot la, can die.
and teo peng suan was "killing" me i tell you
killed me when iwas in school,
and still killin me when im out.
ppfftt..
anyways, ima lovin the band performance la.!!
the songs they played was super fun la.
like damn effin interesting la..!!
hahah.
i got twenty dollar times voucher.!
new book here i come.
heh heh heh.

went ta tp after that.
met mae and sarah and leslie[?]lesley[?]
hahaha!
chilled a while
then off ta town.

wah.! mcm the whole world in town like that sia.
eveywhere i turn,
mae knows someone.
blodddy hell.
pantat.
walked from cine ta far east ta cine and back to far east.
bloody hell
weather today damn hot please..
fishball and 35 biscuits.
met up wit ma bro and like practically slacked with him for the rest of the day.

he and his gf had a hair cut
then off ta chiil at liat towers.!!
ma favourite.
ohoh..
and we were obviously teasin lesley.
hah! she is such a bimbo i swear.
ilarious la ima tellin yawl.
haha.
bla bla bla.
yack yack yack.
and i went home.
not bad i wasnt late for home today.
heh.
ayte ayte.
bye all..
peace.

joey.!! ima missin ya. heh.

shit appens

2006-07-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

how did we?
get entagled in our own bucnh of friends..??
how did we get so caught up in it,
it still lingers now..
why.?
how was it possible.?
someone once asked me bout this..
buti just cldnt ans her.
it was just too tough me then.
but now then i finally have the answer,
im a minute too late.
not a min but months months and months too late.
its not like i can change anything now
or that i could hav stopped anything
or saw it comin that it wasnt me involved
or make any goddamn difference now.
but how.?uess as they all say,
in every mistake, a lesson learnt.
ive learnt mine.
got yours.?
how bout em.?
damn.

ppose ta b sleepin but i guess not now.
cause im sure its gonna linger and hang arnd for a moment..
i got hit hard i guess.
totally the wrong timing..
but then again..
its begginning to fade..
all away again.
FOR GOOD

2006-07-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm,
as much as i deny it,
ima mss that dawg.
bloody hell.
damn it.
freak it
bloodyfishballofamctwistcumbasketshitholemothafucker

anywayys,
wenta joey's after school today
did some last minute packing of her room.
then we went off..
she had ta go for dinner.

the day before that,
wenta sim lim.
got her web cam
mae's web cam
and MY NEW FOUND MEMORY CARD>>!!
heh heh heh.
damn cheap la.
was actually thinkin o gettin an mp3 player..
BUT the memory card was way cheaper.
HAHAHAHAHAH!!!
off ta town after that.
wait did i go town..??
hmmms.
oh yeah, i did.!
heh.
met carynmitch at liat towes starbucks.
then moomoo and jacinta came down.
headed ta heeren after that..
HAH HAH HAH.!
dinner at yoshi's.
then off fer home..
hahaha!!.
uhhhuh. uhhhhuh.
yeps yeps
that was another of my enjoyable week.
heh..

.never take friendship personal.

peace.

once upon a dream

2006-07-26T10:39:00.000+08:00

hello wellloo...
come have some jelloo...
oh fuck shit.

anyways, im suppose ta b in schoool..
heh heh heh..
oh wells..
imbored.
im suppose ta go to mae's then joey's then i dunno where.
heheh.

hello there special one,
no plans two weeks from now ayt.
ur taken..
BY MEE>>!!
doncha dare.
i'll screw you upsidedown
ima tellin ya.
heehee.
kiddin la.

oh oh, fridays comin real soon man.
dang dawg,
why ya gotta go so soon mann.
damn.
its ok.
its all good.

ok ok.
i better stop usg the com
n shower.
or ima b late.
again.
hahaha..!!

bye all...

apprieciate those around you
cause you just might never know..
when's the next time yawl wld meet.

2006-07-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

hey yo hey yo
alrights alrights..
ive been pretty exhausted these past few days
prolly ma body aint used ta gettin up early n shits like that.
but who cares.
bleah.
anyhoos.
met jo bev mae andrea in town on monday while jo dyed her hair.
so while waitin we decided ta eat
and we got free foood!!!
like a whole plate of yu char kuay (is that how u spell it)
ahahah!
yeah yeah.
dang, we were like stuffed man.
oh wells..bev had ta go.
so we headed dwn ta cine.
went for ddr.
hahaah.! its hilarious ima tellin ya./
its so exhuastin playin that game
but whoever..

first day of school,
like shit.
totally NOT diggin it.
everyone was like dead.
totally decomposed..

tuesday.
i dint go school.
i clndt wake up.
haha!
got up at nine.
whats the point.
headed down ta town.
met the usuals.
today was better.
pretty hyped out thru out.
like major.
hahahah!!

aaaahhhh..k k k
i want to go n sleep.
heh.
bye.

what hurts the most
was being so close
having so much to say
but just seeing u walk away.

22nd july

2006-07-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

omg,my com's like finally working la.
like after dont know how long.
i like finally have excess from home.
thats so cool.! heh.

anyhoos anyhooss,
lifee's been pretty cool.
treatin me good and stuffs like that.
been busy tho.
like forever goin out.
bbqs
gatherings
but most off all..
CHILLIN!!
hahaha.
its like a part of me already.
go out
find my spot.
sit and chill.
ppl watch tooo.
i swear spore's running out off good looking ppl ima tellin yawl.
hahaha.

just got back from double d's bbq.
man, i miss that girl.
havent seen fer like ages laa.!
like donkey years maybee..
yo yo double d,
enjoy ya party ayte.!
love ya plenty.
8D

alrigths alrights.
my vacation's alomost up.
like one day left please..
and its school allover again.
damn, how i hate that.
oh wells, i'll just make do with it.

someone once told me,
that if u cant cotrol something that's outta ya hands,
just let it by.
slip away.
cause no point tryin ta hold onto something that's gone.
so thats what ima do.
let it by.
there's like so many things that's goin on right now that aint gonna stay.
people leaving
things changing
but,there's a reason for everything.
so i'll go on.
and who knows...
one day, the pieces might all just fit nicely to a puzzle we all call...
LIFE.

hmm.
i dont know hats ur aim
or what ya tryin to do.
but if ur tryin ta get back at me,
by all means,
go ahead..
cause i dont care.

2006-07-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

hey yo.!
yes yes..
i swear the only way ima gettin access is ma momma's office.
came all the way here just to get rid of my msn auto sign in.
she's been complainin ppl say hi thinkin its been
BAAHHHHAAAHAHAHAH!!!

oh my god.!!
its been donkey years since i last blogged la..
gosh this is terrible..
anyways,
its been the good.
y aknow wha' i mean.
samn shit different day.
its been like that.
who cares anyways
cause i know i dont..
yeah yeah,
oh man..
its too fast.
its all goin too fast.
i havent even spent time with you yet
and ur already leavin..
joey, how cld you.
oh wells
we both know there's nothing that we can do..

hmmm, currently having my vacation now.
've been goin out like evrryday mann..
but i guess it sucks when ur on vacation cause..
ur so free.
and it sucks being free.
it really does..

anyhoos, gotta go now.
later yawl.
momma's buggin me.
its all bout pay back.
[when im gone]

ive run out of those.
this seems ta be the only way through.
im sorry.

2006-05-31T11:52:00.000+08:00

hmm,
not so weekly after all huh.?
've been ta da lab kinda often these.
for all sorts of classes.
but doin onlyone thing..
BLOGGING!!!!
heh heh heh.

oh wells,
monday was ayte.
i was LATE.!!!
as usual.
hahah.
straight home after school..
aint i a good girl????
8D
HAHAHAHAH!
jokes of the world...
hahahaa..

outta chill with cousins yesterday.
free flow yawl.!!
WOOOOHHHOOOOOO...!!
yes yes..
okok
so as usual chillin at starbucks.
totally just slacking and talkin rubbish.
so my cousin told me one her OH SO FUNNY joke.
damn lame if you think bout it actually..

THE JOKE

there's this caterpillar and turtle.
and they were both hungry.
so the turtle asked the caterpillar ta go buy food.
since the turtle's all slow and stuff.
so turtle waited.
one hour passed and caterpillar wasnt back yet.
two hours passed and caterpillar wasnt back yet.
then, five hours passed and turtle gave up waitin and decided ta go look for caterpillar.
so when turtle opened the door he saw caterpillar, and asked..
"ur finally back after so long.? so where's our food???!!!!"
and the caterpillar answered...
"rilek ah brother, aku baru abes pakai kasut.."
[translation..."hold on dude, i just finish putting on all my shoes."]
HAHAHAHAAHAH!
hilarious dontcha think.?
hahah!
uuhhhmmmm..
just a lil entertainment ta kkill our boredom.
8D

ayte ayte.
supossedly having tks.
wow.! im so paying attention la.!
BAHHAHAHAH.!

ooh..!!
mom's outta town.
the house's all mind!!
yay yay yay!!
it's time ta partttaayyeee...!!!
hahahahah.!

anyways,
everyone's fallin sick nowadays.
poor thing.
coughs coughs
sniffs sniffs
im surrounded by them.
just hope i wont fall sick ey.?
hahha!

to youpoor souls out there,
take care ayte.
stayin fit and healthy is really important.
hhaahh.!
(who am i ta talk bout being healthy)
HAHAHAHA.!

later yawl..

sampamdpoopooman: we've gotta meeet up soon. ayte.
dance night dance night.

2006-05-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

hmm,
here goes my weekly updates.
i was ayte this morinin.
till i dontknow what happen.

feeling super fucked up.
feeling like shit.

but no anymore.
cause there's always one person
one person that makes everything wrong, right.
one who enlightens ur day.

boy, aint i thankful for you.

8D

2006-05-26T12:01:00.000+08:00

hello all.
ok ok ok
ohther than my weekly updates.
i've been given the privilage ta use da com in school.
supposedly havin ofa now.
which islike totally bullshit.
like what the hell.
could have just left after bfd la.
ugh.
waste time im telling you.
damn.
gosh,
mom's goin off like tmr.
but as much as iu deny it,
i will miss her.
damn.!

hmmm,
looks like im aint goin ta bishan campus mann.
i've got like what,
a miserable FOUR more days.
i can so forgetit la.
ohwells.
it'd b tough to go tho.
met such nice peeps.
they're hilarious luh.
haha.!
forever laughing.
there's not a moment everyone's quiet.
not even durin tests/exams.
hahaha.!

how am i doin yawl.
am i loosing my touch.?
i still soundlike nor dont i.?
haha.!

wow.!
its amazing how a month passes by so fast.
like omg.
goin to school takes uplotsof time mann.
not forgetting skippin class
goin for badminton instead.
spendin time with my peeps.
speakin of which..

JOEY
as much as i said i love aussie
and aint wantin ta come back.
but i dint mean anythinglike takin my friend away so far away.!!!!
ugh..!!!
damn, im gonna miss that kibeng.
freaking hell
damn long la.
she's gonna b all aussie-fied when she returns.
damn.
damn.
oh wells.
nothing any ofus can do.
you go have fun ayte.
go wild out.
bring all the hotties in the world.!!!
ooh, im meetin you today.!
HAH!

foofoo:
where ya at girl.? havent seen ya fer like ages mann.
feeeels like donkey years la.!

sampamdapoopoomann:
how are you doin my dear.?
you are not alone.
i am here with you..
LALALALALALA..
somethin something
i dont know anymore.
hehehe.!

alrights alrights
i've gotta stop now.
class is ending sooon.
hahah!
gotta blast!
:heh.! i feel like jimmy neutron. haha.

i love you all.
i miss him. :(

2006-05-22T10:21:00.000+08:00

memories all alone in the moonlight...
LA LaLALALALA!!
haahha.
i ano whats the rest.
hahaha.

weekend was awesome mann.
so filled.
've never been so busy.
ok la. not busy.
just occupied.

badminton on thrs was great.
kinda got all emotional mann.
damn.
came put with phrases and phrases.
hahahaha.

off to town on friday.
oh wait, did something else too.
but oh wells.
town town town.
seems to b my second home theses five few days.
hahahha.

MI CARNIVAL...!!!!
hahahas.
so hot la.
can die ima telling you..
hahah!
hey, i still dont get it.
damn.
oh wells..
town again after that.
hahahaa.!
chilled at starbucks.
the usual.

and so i thot i could rest on sunday
but no.
im out again.
hahaha!
with momma this time.
she's goin haj yawl.
gotta get all her stuffys.
hahahah!
went went from malay village ta toa payoh
ta pasir ris ta tampiner ta toapayoh again
and rushed all the home to catch singapore idol.
IT was hilarious please.
hahaha!
all the rush just to get a new phone.
but ditn get it in the end.
hahaha!
waste of time la.
ugh.
but oh wells.

freaking.
here i am tryin ta run away from it.
but it's always arnd.
bloody hell.
i thot went i ended secondary school it'd b gone.
i never have ta face it again.
but no..
It'S BAck!!
damn it.
bloody accounts.
ugh.

oh wells oh wells..
it's all up to me now.

[i just wanna fall asleep
fall asleep all night
where i wont b able to feel my heart beat
or hear myself breathe
this seems to be the only way out.
runnin away.
yep, thats what im doin.]

8D

2006-05-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

hey hey
hmm,
im in school
supposedly having business classes
tsk tsk nor..
naughty naughty
anyhoos.
ITe's been preeettyyy good.
testin me really.
links and links
bloddy pantat..
oh wells..

so it's been two weeks or more ithink since school started.
the people are ayte.
the surroundings ok.
people pretty gamed on studyin.
HAHAH.!

except for the language.
ziezie says i talk like a youknowwhat.
have to luh.
heh.!

anyhoos,
its total boredom now.
cant even see a flying fishball on the screen.
so uber tiny.
damn it.
and the background's yellow.
great right.
anyways,
i had so much to blog then
but now when im here
it all disappears.
like everything just goes away
freak it.

if only it works for everything else.

i LOVEYOU ALL>>!!!
heh.!
plenty.

-peace-

2006-05-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

(: AZIE HERE.

Wishes do come true.

It's amazing how musik sings your life. You in a happy mood, when you're upset, filled with anger, boiling with hatred & blah blah blah.If you really study the song they play on the radio they have a song for every emotion, donja think?

Musik really makes the world go round, doesn't it?

OH! School started & it's a blast!
I've never had sucha great time in a new school before.
Meeting new people, is sucha goood thing : D
Starting anew, is the best thing.

I'm lovin' it! : D

-

Be careful for Karma could turn around & bite you, (:
I'm not interested.

finally

2006-04-12T09:55:00.000+08:00

ohmagoddd!!
like finally i tell you
its been like ages
gosh
hmmm
SAM:im goin ayte.

hmmm.
i've made a deal with myself
never to do it again
nevr get caught in the same shit
smelling fishy stuffys
gettin all screwed

HAH.!
gotcha!
just kiddin!
in my next life please.
not so soon la.
takes time ya know
its not some paper or whatever
that i can just throw away.

so
a whole lot of yawl
aint got no shit bout what im chattering bout.
hah!
ask me mann.
yeah yeah.

but for those who knows,
HEHEHEHEH!

sorraye im abit psycho
lost touch la
i think when i got caught in the drizzle yesterday
it kinda washed off some other stuufff.

OOOHHH!!
shall i get a new shoe?
shall i?
shall i?
a new bag?
shall i?
shall i?

oh freak it.
bye all.

oh
have ever felt
how it feels
to lose it all?

2006-04-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

hey hey all.
and so its been super duperrr long.
but yeah.
anyways,
department needs some serious cleaning up.
gettin rid of all tha ol' stocks.
updatin ma check book
and shits like tht.
gettin new ones.
just what i need..
its all good now huh.?
i hope.
oh wells.
life's all good.
my greatest attempt to burn bad away today was GONNNNNEEEE.
thanks to d MaN above.
who refuses to let it shine.
damn.
off ta town..
boy, aint it feelin good washin up after so long.
heh.
gosh, i spent so much today,
momma's gonna flip when she sees my account balance.
ohhh nnnooooo.
but it was goooood.
companied by the best company ever.
i bought a new cd.
yesterday's news la
but yeah.
its good yaw.
go grb it.
HURRYYY.
oooh oooohh..
totally out of point,
but i miss you.
tho i see you
smell you
feeel ur touch
that lingers till i fall asleep.
every single daayy.
now, this is the best i ever had.

oh wells ohwells..
hmmm,
dont know why but i just said what i said.
"music is the remedy for my soul."
hmmmm,
dont reallly believe it in
but...
it happens huh.
ooh.
just outta curiousity,
yawl believe in karma?
tht what you do now.
will turn arnd n bite you.
heh, now dont tht sound familiar.
hahaha.

i just cnt unlove you.
by kenny rogers.
if yawl like watch americn idol,
yawl prolly know the song im talkin bout.
its so nice.
so goooood.
its yummaye.
8D.

sam: i ano' if i can go.
but i'll comfirm wit ya.
its em yaw.
u know how i aint lovin
lookin over my shoulders.
so yeah.
thinkin bout it ayte.

i miss you

2006-04-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

i miss you.
i miss you so much.
too much that words cant express it.
why?
why do i?
it was just a time we had.
so why does it all come back now.?
why?
why?
someone please tell me why.
so many qns yet no answers.
what am i to do.
for these will never have an ans.
gosh...
i dont know any more.
i just dont know what to do.
or the right thing to say.
the right move to make that is.
ur here.
so am i.
but things just aint right.
how come.?
gosh.
im confuse.
but one thig's fer sho.
i miss you.
i miss u loads.
sometimes i wonder if u miss me too.
:'(

me

2006-04-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

was goin thru ma mail n this is whut i found.
heh.
cool shits huh.?
anyhoos,
really?
am i?
is this really me.?

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to
dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.
Sensitive.

hmm,
is this really really me.?
hahah.!
its just junk mail.
anyhoos,
aussie trip's good.
surrounded by the nicest ppl of the world.
lots of shoppin.
but more updates later on.
imuh head down ta d mall.!
later yawl.

oh mann...
the love of my life.
i miss u.
its been too long
im lost without you.
so far away from me
out of reach
of my two open arms
many signs
it just shows ur wit me even wen im away.
i cant wait ta get back.
to see u once again.
no one ever treated me like u did.
the buses.
the shops.
the songs.
everything.
gosh.
im just too lost without u.
then yesterday,
i just got stuck.
gosh, i just cldnt sleep.
no one was there ta keep me warm.
to cover me up with warmth that i need.
gosh, my baby,
i miss you so.
i seriously cant wait ta get back.
you'll b the first thing i'd do when i get back..
[if only i could]

Of all the words of pen and paper,
'if only' and 'should have' hurts the most.

changes.
thats what i need.
thats what i got.
but is it what i want.
a changed environment.
different people.
is it worth it.
its best to think of what i NEED
more than what i WANT.
LIVE ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
zie, i need help.
help me pls.

2006-03-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

hey;
some people would want some things
but is that what they need.?
ask urself that
we often have cravings bout wanting things
but is that what we really really need.?
sorry but i just cant emphasize on this any further.

oh wells.
we cant always get things the way we want them ta be.
some things from the past just cant b part of the future.
if its in the past, leave it in the past.
but then again,
the cravin of wantin it to b in the future is just to much
hmmm.
mayb i aint makin any sense ta any of you.
but these are just..
matters of the heart the mind cant comprehend.
someone once told me that..
i'll rememba it fer sho.
oh wells.
there's just aint no thing i can do boutit.

why cant people ever be satisfied with what we have.
always wantin more.
wantin what we cant get.
something that's to far,
out of reach of my two open arms.
we humans r never satisfied.
always wanting more.

lesson learnt;
what you want aint always what u deserve
and what u desrve aint always what u need..

be satisfied for what's infront of ur eyes.
cause u might never know when its gonna go away.

today's a happy day

2006-03-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

hey all hey all.!
its been long ey.!

WOOOHHOOOOO!!!
sorraye,imuh very very happy child.
I GOT THE COURSE!!
heh heh.!
damn it.!
those days of waitin
and bla bla bla.!
ooh~!cant wait ta go school.!
starts in MAY tho.
Uhhmm.
oh wells!
thank GOD!
really!!

oh wells!!
hmm.
off ta aussie yawl.!
like this friday.
hmm,
it sucks to leave when u've got ppl ta leave behind
dontcha all agree.
like finally.
after so long
the n u gotta go.
like what the hell.
but look at the bright side.
its only one week.
lots of shoppin ta do.
BBAAAHHHHHH!!!

imuh miss you all.!!!
hahaha!
oouh!
bye yawl.!!!
im a very very very happy child.
did i tell u that.

imagine me and you.
i do,
i think bout you day n night
its only right
to think bout the one u love
and hold them tight
so happy together

imagine me and you
you and me
no matter how they toss the dice
its meant to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together.

hahaha!!

2006-03-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

hello wello!!
simnce i haf the com
i shall use it till i die!!
hahaha! just kiddin anyways.
gotta b quick
mom's lockin up soon
aint wantin ta b stuck in here forever mann.
hahaha!!1
ayte ayte.tmr's gonna b a good day
dont u think s ozie.?
hahaha!1
ayte yawl.
bye now.!!!

2006-03-13T16:08:00.000+08:00

alright yawl..
latest updates.
nor's bored.
she's dyin of boredom.
she's leadin a gawd damn borin lifessytle.
she things life's a bore..

anywyas.
ROCKAFELLASKANK was da greatest imuh tell yawl.
it was good mann.
tho some of da songs they rocked ta got me caufght up.
but its all good.
jumpin arnd like some mad doofs.
haha!
life.
of ta tp after that.
our so called chillin hadta b fast.
peeps hadta rush home mann.
hahah.
what a pity.

so off i went slackin'
as usual
companied by my best friend in the world.
who never fails ta brighten up my day.
stand side by side.
never goes missin.
i can always count on him ta b there.
tho sometimes i dumb him fer some lame excuse
but i'll need him always.
he's something a can never live without.
its been so long now.
been wit me thick n thin.
listen ta me talk nonsense.
good times
bad times
oh gawd,
i love u
so much, u'd never know.
haha.!

anyways,
then i had lots n lots of stuff ta do.
like weddin here.
weddin there.
why is tehre so many ppl gettin married mann.
hahaha.!
busy busy busy
it has been.

well..
gotta go now.
monayye aint comin easy yih know.
gotta work my ass off fer iitt..!
so yeah.
later all.

ooh.!!
those schoolin,
haf fun yawl.
espsecially you zie zie.
you've got much too enjoy.
too bad march one week hols r here ey.
dont miss it too much ey.
haha!
Love yuh lots!

2006-03-10T13:44:00.000+08:00

hello there world.
so i got to ite.
butit aint the course nor da school i want.
damn it.
bloodyfishballsthingythingthing.
oh wells.
ive accepted it anyways.
and appealed.
really hope imuh get it mann.
gawdd.!!
oh wells.

at joey's now.
usg her com.
stupid laptop.
rottin ta death at home.
whata waste of monayye imuh tellin yawl.

so whats been up my life..
well, zie's off ta school.
which sucks.
but good fer her.
STUDY SMART AYTE.

so lets see.
accopanied joey ta school.
good talkin ta yah double D.
never felt betta.
keep it in ayte.
layin low.
off ta meet dern then.
chilled.
boy, aint she shocked.
hahah!
sorry mah baby.
wasnt intentional.
haha.!
u asked fer updates.
so i gave it ta yuh.
straight dawg.
hhmm.
we should really do that often mann.

talkin seriously is the remedy.
tho it aint wit hu yuh wannt it ta b wit.
its good ta say it all out.
get it off yuh chest.
good huh.
but oh wells.

here's alil sum'in.

whats da point of being able ta see the world
when the one u wanna see aint part of it.
what d point of listenin
when the words u wanna hear aint being heard.
whats the point of puttin it at top volume
knowin the silence is loud enuff ta overcome it.
what d point of lookin,
searchin high n low
when u aint gonna see what u;ve been searching for.
whatd point of feelin it
when its all fake.

oh fuck it.
oh wells.
alone i shall
forever be.
for i know from now
love;s never meant ta b
not when it happens tab u n me.

familiar aint this dude.?
still keepin it in mine.
keepin things real.
doin things right.
even if it seems wrong.
oh well.

i read this somewhere.
somehting bout fakin it.
and forgettin whatever.
but deep inside u know
its disaster.

off ta tp now.
zie's goona kil me.
im dead.
bye alll.

2006-03-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

True love doesn't come by often.
It comes by just once.
But having then opportunity,
the privilege of feelin it again,
is a bonus.

So should true love comes by once more,
don't let it slip away.
Appreciate it, for love won't come again.
Though life is a long way.

-

Well to me, true love doesn't exist & love itself is bull shit.
(: if anyone wondered if I had loved anyone out there,
the answer is 'No', bcos' unlike hate, love don't last forever.

I think it's time you return me,
for the rent is overdue.

-

POSTED BY THE INFAMOUS, AZIE.

2006-02-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

hey hey..
omg.
can there atleast b one.
where it aint a link.
you plus you
n i get you.
hmm. no all tht good after all huh.
anyhoos, chilled at starbucks today.
met a couple of ppl.
all good i must say.

thnks for allowin things t b this way
for things t b ok
to where it all began
to where it was meant to b
imuh give it one more shot
imuh try muh best
i hope it turns out good.
something diiferent
something new.
something unlike the rest
imuh treat u good
treat u well.
treat u like how u were suppose to b
cos i know how it feels
basically, i know whut ur goin thru
ur not alone

stop dreamin u freak head
face up to reality
being real
tryin hard not to look back
look ahead

ooh...
whut tha helll
imuh go now yawl.
've got betta thangs ta do

i lost it
nothin last forever.
its not too late
not lookin back
things therefore myte b perfect
nothings gonna change whut u said
dont say u dont understnd
nothing's too late
cos nothing happened.

im off.
peace out yawl.

2006-02-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

Here is something Nor created while chillin' with her cousins,

Good or bad,
happy or sad,
same or different,
depressed or glad.
I'm sleeping on a mat,
not on the bed bcos i'm mad.
I saw a cat,
& it's fat!
But it's not a cat,
it's my dad crawling on a bed.
So that's a tat tat.

--

Why does she cry,
bcos' she is high.
While flying in the sky,
She burnt her thigh.

Fly, fly, fly, the butterfly.
In the meadow, flying low.
In the sky, flying high.
Fly, fly, fly the butterfly.

(This is a song!)

--

This is an evidence of what she has been doing these past few days.

--

My legs are weak.
My arms are weaker.
But my heart's the weakest.

--

Please do forgive the grammar & the spelling bcos' my english is deteriorating at a speed of light, so please do. (:
This post was blogged by Azie, rookie-.blogspot.com (HAHAHA)

2006-02-23T09:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO THERE PEEPS OF THA WORLD.!!

HAHAHHAS.!
HMM,MASS aint that bad.
actually, i wldnt know.
I DINT ATTEND.
hahahah.!
anyhoos, got my steeple.
looked at all the retarded ppl.
hahaha.
school was ayte. i guess.
saw ppl.
new ones.
old ones.
same ones.
changed ones.

ANYWAYS,
chilled a lil wit double d.
then imuh off ta town.
now, was that interesting.
well, slacked tha whole freakin day.
sat at starbucks like from one thirty ta six.
talked a lil.
teared as well.
feels good being oopeen.
confused tho.
whut do yuh want do yawl.
i think imuh did it too much.
muh body hurts mann.
off fer dinner wit azie.
hair cut after that.
after much plannin.
im still back wit da same hair cut.
AHHAHA.!
imuh sho azie knows whut imuh talkin bout.
ahaha.!

thanks all fer hearin me out.
glad ta know ya care.
comin back when yuh like at yuh crib yaw dawg.
thank god fer stayin in central area.
HAHAHA>!
oh wells.
no time fer whutever.
so yeah.
imuh stray.
far away.
never comin back.
got da drift.?

fucked up song's playin on mtv now.
which is like so totally suckayye.
eeks.!
cant believe it
i used ta love this song.
gosh.!
such bad taste in music i had.

oh wells.
now its all said and done.
imuh take a chill pill.
take a lil shower.
and off ta town i go.
imuh tellin yuh
town's like muh second crib yawl.
goin there evryday.
seein someone mayb.
hopin mayb.
eye candy perhaps.
waitin.
or plainly slackin at starbucks.
hahahaha.!!!

it felt like yuh sold my heart
at the nearby shop.
buyin only when needed.
sellin it off when
yuh aint wantin it.
thanks.
i feel like a toy.
thats whut ive been wantin ta b anyways.
after eleven years of education,
thats my dream job.
thanks alot.
i finally got my dream career.
8D

2006-02-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

if GOD was againts it,
why do things happen.
the fact that yawl can agree when i say,
we do da plannin
but god makes the final decision.
so i ask,
why do things happen.
if its wrong,
how come he made us go thru all that.?
why does he make us go thru all thats wrong.
and face the punishments later.
once again,i ask why.

EVERYTHIN HAPPENS FER A REASON.
so whuts da reason bhind this.
learn fron our mistakes
and not repeat it.
so why.?
can someone explain to me,
bout whut da fuck imuh talkin bout.
or yawl aint got no clue too.
or mayb imuh just thinkin.
thinkin way too much.
but think bout it yawl.
since HE makes all the decision,
why does he allow me ta go thru with it.

some would keep ta their promises.
some would do as they say.
some would speak their mind.
some would listen.
some would go that extra mile ta go on.
some would let go of the past.
some would build new relationships.
some would give space ta new ones.
some would just runa away.
some would stay and change.
some would just have no clue.
some would pretend.
some would settle it once and for all.
some would get over it.

SO,the question is..
WHICH ONE ARE YOU.?

2006-02-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

when ta work today
pretty sucky.!
it sucked.!
i lost muh motivation mann.
muh motivator, is gone.!

oh wells,
feel like quittin.
but imma wait fer end of this month.
i think.

oh wells.
ermm, mmmm, menthol, lights, okay cool.
that was a bunch of crap by azie, cool huh.!

**

(: okay! azie here to continue the post!
let's all say, AZIE is fucking' disappointed that she didn't go to toa payoh, ):

aside, back to nor nadya natashah binte mohd. noooooooor! (:

she is a psycho, self-confessed.
i had dinner at Azie's Cafe today, it was yummilicious!
i give it TEN THUMBS UP! (:
goodygoodgoood, you should try it!
head down today!

you left me.
i'm bruised.

OKAY, AZIE SAY'S GOOOODBYE!
I'LL BE BACK, (:

(to haunt norrrrr's blog, heh heh)

nor says :

"PEACE OUT, A-TOWN."
- does the usher thing.

muh definition

2006-02-15T09:35:00.000+08:00

just sent muh application out.
that went prettaye well.
apllied fer the course i want.
so its all good.

attached.
whut a beautiful day.
another day ta celebrate wit yuh loved one.
yes yes.
its like everyday
but today's extra special.
BAHHAHAHHA.!

not attched.
whuts there ta celebrate.
yuh mean yuh only show how yuh really care
on this oh so not appreciated day.
like whut the bleah.
lousy ppl.

well. well.
now thats muh definition of valentine's day.
mind da psycho talkin.
really not in mood now.

FUCK u bitch.
i aint wantin ta go.
yuh already force.
still wanna rub it in.
like buzz off.
bitch.

anyways, i shant waste space on her.
its so wasted.
ugh.
i;ve betta things ta do.
betta stuff ta think off.
no time fer yuh.

Have you ever loved someone so much
You'd give an arm for
Not the expression
No, literally give an arm for
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when karma
Turns right around to bite you
And everything you stand for turns on you despite you
What happens when you become the main source of her pain

[And when I'm gone, just carry on
Don't mourn, rejoice
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that, I'm lookin' down on you smilin'
And i didn't feel a thang
So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on
Don't mourn, rejoice
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that, I'm lookin' down on you smilin'
And i didn't feel a thang
So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...]

happy valentine's day

2006-02-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY TA ALL YAW.!

anyhoos, just came back from a talk.
it was ayte.
prettaye cool.
hmm, muh mind's all made up now.
i know whut imuh do next.
hahah.!

ok..so valentine's day aint all that bad.
beside da fact thta i aint got one.
but who gives.
well, mayb i do.
HAHAHA.!
accompanied me fer lunch just now.
sorry. dint know whut ta do.
dint wanna give false hope.
yuh gonna get ova it ayte.
aint no shit goona appen'.

oh wells, this is fer u, special one.
it aint the end of the world ayte.
hold yuh head high fer there's many more to come.
i aint no expert but i can speak thru experience.
i know how yuh feelin.
take yuh time.
there aint no rush.
do whut yuh hafta do.
and yuh might never know.
someone out there might b made fer yuh.
only time can tell.
so dont ask for much.
actually, dont even ask.
live each day a new.
you'll get by da day.
yuh got addicted ta da habit.
not too much.
just a lil bit a day.
if it makes yuh feel betta,
bring me along.
imuh hear yuh out.
yuh were there fer me.
imuh b there fer yuh too.
aint sayin its gonna b easy.
just rememba that..
every endin brings yuh closer ta a new beginnin.
remember that ayte.
one more thang,
yuh aint alone.
yuh haf me by yuh side.
plenty love.
[Be strong, believe]

and so i cant go.
but it aint affectin me, just yet.(?)
has it not occured ta me yet.
or aint i allowin it ta.
does this show some signs.
aint much ta me.
i was sure bout where imuh headin.
but everythin's changed.
im stuck.
cant go on.
cant move back.
imuh caught in da middle.
no emotions attached
or atleast i try.
avoidin it in fear of fallin hard.AGAIN.
cant afford that.
fer muh heart's bruised.
hard.
broken a couple of times only holdin tight by tapes.
hit it hard & it'll shatter.
are yuh gone.
done fer da last time.
just dat i aint realisin it.?
if so, whut am i feelin.?
all yucky and bleah in inside.
nothang said there.
peace out yaw.

[photo-ryan caberra]

imuh backk.!

2006-02-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

hey yawl.! wassup people.!
yeah yeah. its been long huh.
way too many thangs goin on in muh life.
HAHAH.!
but o wells.imuh overcome it.
hmm,so basically its been work work and more work eversince a month back.
prettaye cool.
get muh mind of stuff and all of that.
wow.! i really know how ppl who ask fer contributions from da public feels mann.
REAL PAIN imuh tellin yawl.
gettin kinda borin tho.
doin da same ol' thang like everyday.
seein da same all peeps round town.
same ol' shit.
but somehow doin da same ol' thang really leaves yuh no more fer other stuffs.
O wells. nothang ta dwell bout that.
its just part & parcel of life.!
aint i right zie.?
its just part of it.
HAHAH.

anyways, results are out.
prettaye cool.
decidin where ta go now.
contemplatin on two courses.
damn.! thats tough.
imuh havin ono more day ta think mann.
now thats a long time.
HAHAH.

VALENTINES DAY's tomaro yaw.!
ta da love birds out there,
haf fun ayte.
fer the others, urs will come prettaye soon.
DONT EXPECT. BE SURPRISED.
someone told me that.
and somehow, it WORKS WONDERS.!

anyhoos, life's been treatin me good.
confuse tho.
but who gives a flyin *toot.!*
BLEAH.
whatever ta that mann.
aint no shit ta talk bout there.
just get up and keep it movin.
aint that easy tho.

[foolish by ashanti]
i ask why.

2006-01-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

you didnt sign out!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.